lesson learned

yesterday was not my day. and i'm still to upset from the day to say what happened. but i will say that an event occured that made me ponder my abilities as a parent and my overall abilities as a functioning adult. the situation itself was bad enough. it was one of those situations where as a mother you are instantly physically sick and your heart begins to bleed. and then i was met with anger, judgement and contempt from a renegade jury of my peers. who i must say i am still grateful to for the service they provided for my family. but, a situation that was already bad was made 100 times worse. i can't remember the last time i have felt so low about myself. and as the shock started to wear off it made me start to wonder. how many times have i jumped to judgement when i've seen or heard about a less than perfect situation that has occurred?? have i shown people love in their hour of need or have i looked upon them with judging eyes?? i hope that if i am in a similar situation again (on the other side next time please lord) that i will offer a supportive and comforting arm to the one in need. that i will help them to understand that no one is perfect and sometimes unfortunate things happen. that i will look upon them with eyes that show love and compassion rather than hate and anger. i hope i leave them in a better place than the one i found them in. that is my dearest and sincerest prayer on this sabbath day. and i am so eternally grateful to my heavenly father for the love and protection that i know he provides to me and my family.